March 30, 2012

Living without Worry



After many years of worrying, this month, my brain is finally quiet. 

The fever broke, so to speak.  I use to go to bed at night and think :

"What did I forget to worry about today?"

"What was that thing I did/said that was really stupid?"

and so an endless cycle of restless nights and tired mornings, wrestling with confidence and career-satisfaction - leading to more worry.  


eating healthy helped put me in a good mood, right from the AM


For my whole life, I was sure - absolutely certain - my life would include art in some way.  I trained for it in school, studied it in college, referred to myself as an artist, all my friends were artists...

And then suddenly I wasn't sure anymore.

For some reason, I wasn't happy with anything I was producing, and panicked at the thought of finding bad comments about my work on the internet.

I stopped sketching for fun, art was becoming a regular, soul-crushing job, instead of a passion.  Wasn't I supposed to be "living the dream"?  Combining passion and work?

finally sketching for fun - [this is after Wally Wood] - with paint pens

I was choking myself with worry about a future I wasn't even sure was going to happen.

Then, one morning in the shower after having a particularly rough night, it occurred to me: You are causing all this worry yourself.  All these worries are illusions.


Let's break the problems down


Worry: People hate or will hate your work

Reality: Do people really hate it?  If they do, will the police come to your house and arrest you for it?  Is an angry mob going to ride you out on a rail?


Of course not.

So why care?  Why even consider the negative?

Usually, the people who are negative about stuff are more vocal than the majority of people who like it, or don't think anything about it at all.

And, it doesn't mean they hate you as a person.  You are not just your work.


Worry: You're not as talented as you think you are

Reality: You're being way too hard on yourself.  Stop being your own horrible boss.  If you work for yourself, why be a jerk to work for?  If you're really not as good as you think you are: get better.  Take a new class, learn from your peers or find a mentor.

You're never too old or too successful to learn new things.

In fact, it's mandatory.


Worry: You can't seem to say what you really want to say

Reality: This person will be fine.  Just say it.

Not doing so is just bad news.  You leave feeling regretful, the other person has no idea how you really feel, and you are doomed to repeat the situation again.

No matter how uncomfortable it is to tell someone the awful truth, you are actually making it worse if you don't.

Don't carry around mental baggage, chances are the other person isn't.


In business situations years ago, I used to be afraid to tell someone that they owed me more money, or that their deadline was too soon for my schedule - so I'd just keep it all in, stress out, and rush the final product.

In the end, it makes your work suffer and your clients unhappy.


It feels so good to punch worry in the face.  

It's like taking off a very heavy coat...


cooking became a new hobby, learning about food is so exciting to me

// Remember // 

You can do anything!  

No one holds you back - not even you!


March 28, 2012

This week in cell pics



On the way to teach a class in Malden

Picked up the most amazing golden delicious apples 
from the Living Earth market in Worcester. 

No, you don't understand - 
this was the best apple I've ever eaten

in. my. LIFE.


Grapefruit sorbet and lemon froyo taste test ~ both wonderful
at Wooberry in Worcester


at Trader Joe's in Shrewbury, MA looking at my favorite blossoms


Stopping for a coffee at Oveda's before teaching a class in Amesbury, MA


Alexa trying on a lovely trench coat at Anthropologie in Natick



Your friendly neighborhood Spider-man at Midtown Comics, NYC


My favorite section of any comic store - art books and collections of 40s strips



at the market on Yale Campus, New Haven, CT

  A face in my fruit...


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You can see 8 original art pages from my adaption of Frankenstein + some from Pirates of Mars on display at UMass Lowell until March 23.

More about that {here} !

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March 26, 2012

Spring colors


Sketching on WPI campus this week

We can call it a wish list.

I'm actually going to try and make some of the things here, I think I can pull off the triangle necklace and the green bracelet?


March 25, 2012

Batman Villains in 5x7

Hey friends,

This week I have a few ink drawings on eBay, the theme this time is Batman Villains!  These are ending tonight

I'll also have a Batman heroes week, a Marvel Fantastic Four week, and other random bits.  Should be fun!

These are all 5x7 ink drawings I did down in Austin Texas at the Wizard Con this past fall.




In other news, here's a new painting in progress...


March 21, 2012

Big Spring Art Sale


Hey friends!

We've all been toiling away throughout the winter (be it as mild as I've ever seen it in New England) and it's time to clean out the studio storage and make room for new paintings!


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Pink Rider

oil + acrylic paint on wood  |  16x20  |  SOLD

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Boris

 acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  SOLD

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Girl with Specs

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  $15



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Ina

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  $15



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The Man Who Laughs

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  $15


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Paul

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  $15

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Boy Wonder

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  SOLD

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Ultraman

acrylic paint on wood panel  |  5x5  |  $15


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COMBINED SHIPPING is FREE

For combine shipping, purchase items in one transaction and 
I will refund all extra shipping costs, less base postal rate.

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March 18, 2012

Yale / NYC weekend














Spring is here!

Feeling really happy about a lot of things.

Finally learned to stop worrying so much, just enjoy living.


Discovered a wonderful place in New York - Le Pain Quotidien in Bryant Park, never been there before!  Had to hit Book-Off for some used issues of Sweet and Jille, and walk around the New York Public Library and Midtown Comics.

Made some wonderful happy memories with a seasonal turkey artichoke tartine and raspberry tarte.  Not to mention Le Pain Quotidien's coffee is outstanding!

Went to the usual New Haven standbys we love so much: Cutler's Music, A-One Pizza, the Barnes & Noble at Yale campus, and the fresh markets.

Can't wait to start cleaning up the garden!